The past year has been a lesson in patience.
I thought I had learned this lesson but then my patience ran out and I couldn't wait any longer. I figured I still had so much to learn.
Then I spent the last two days in a hospital room. With a father who is a terrible patient, who had a bad reaction to pain meds and almost had to be restrained, who thought he was having surgery on Sunday, then Monday and now on Tuesday is hoping for Wednesday. With a stepmother who has had the patience of a saint but who reached her breaking point today and had to be pulled back. With two brothers who have so much energy and a hospital does not have much outlet for that. With nurses, techs and doctors coming in and out all day.
I thought by now I would be crawling out of my skin. Of course I am not the one lying in the bed with an IV in one arm, bruises from all the blood work in the other, with a catheter that is painful when I shift ever so slightly, who hasn't eaten solid food in 3 days and has to rely on other people for pretty much everything. I am just one of the people who has had to deal with the grumpiness and belligerence and the insults and the impatience.
Maybe it helps that just 2 days ago I was in an audience who was able to hear the Dalai Lama speak about compassion and having a compassionate heart.
All I know is that I have so much more patience then I thought possible. I hope I can help others learn to be more patient, but I have a feeling that may take longer than I think...but if I'm patient enough it will happen.
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